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I feel lost. I feel like I no longer know what direction to move in and no longer know what my path in life is supposed to be. I thought I knew what I wanted and it feels as if my life is falling apart suddenly. I want to be loved and I want to love someone, and I want to love what I do for a living, and I want to have faith in my family and in my life, and today it is not there. I am so confused right now. Why must it always be so hard, why must it be a complete struggle all the time with everything in my life? What did I do to offend the powers that may be to make everything so hard all the time? I constantly feel that I do not measue up to everyones standards for some reason. I do not know what else to do or how to act. I am always honest, I am always upfront, I am loyal to a fault, I work my ass off, and for some reason it just does not matter. What else can I say, except the fact that I feel lost today.

T.